Thinking of you...and counting the days!

So I miss Nolan like crazy today! It is sort of random because you would think that I would miss his terribly until I get to talk to him at night and then the ache would somehow feel better after hearing his voice, but I find almost every time that the opposite is true. We were able to talk on skype tonight for almost 2 hours and all that it did was make me miss him that much more. Now I just cant get him off my mind. Long distance relationships suck.... really, really bad! I honestly don't know how Emily does it. Everyday, I realize what an amazing woman Emily is. You amaze me Emily, I just thought you should know!

I be sooooo Lucky!!!

Wow, It has been an eternity since I last blogged but I guess I should just come to terms with the fact that I am probably the worlds worst blogger. Anyway, now that I am out of the closet, I promise to try and be better about it.
So much has been going on the last couple of months that there would be no way to even try and write about it, and my future sister-in-law told me that i shouldn't even try. So, I will take her advise and just start from today.
Let me first start out by saying, HOLY CRAP-I AM GETTING MARRIED IN LESS THEN 2 WEEKS!!!! Everyday that it gets closer I realized how not only lucky I am but also how blessed I have been. Everyday I realize how much the Lord is in the details of my life. I mean I can't even count all the little miracles that I have seen since I made the choice to change the path my life was on a year and a half ago. Some people might not believe that a higher power is watching over us and helping us along our personal life journey. However for me, I can honestly say that I am at the point in my life where I have no doubt that there is a God, that he loves us and wants the best for us, and if we let him, he will be there for us during every part of our life.
Today I have been thinking a lot about something Maddie always says when she is super excited, and that is "I be so lucky Momma!" Those words just keep coming into my mind today. I keep saying to myself, "WOW! I be sooooooo lucky!!" Sometimes I feel super ungrateful because even though the Lord has blessed me with so much, I am constantly asking for more. However, today I just feel super blessed, happy, and grateful for everything I have been given! Although I might not get to live with Nolan for the next year, I get to be married to him, and lets be honest that is amazing! Everyday I just have to kneel down and thank my Heavenly Father for blessing me with such a wonderful man. I don't know what I did in my pre-mortal life to deserve him but whatever it is, I have to say that I am so grateful I did it! He is everything I could ever think to ask for in a man and in a future husband. The other thing I feel so grateful for today is Madeline. I just love that little girl more then words can or ever could express. Just thinking about her warms my heart and brings a smile to my face.
So I close again my saying "I be so lucky!...I be so lucky!"