Wow, I am the worst blogger EVER!!!

So I have decided that I am probably the worst blogger ever, but oh well. I have embraced it and am moving on. I will do my best to be better about it this year but we will see. I have realized that the reason I am not a huge blogger is because I feel like I have to say something important or profound and lets be honest, that is a lot of pressure. So karen suggested that I just write about cute or funny things Maddie does or says and that sounded pretty good to me.
Lately, I feel like all of my conversations with Maddie have been about 3 topics, Marriage, Babies, and Death!!!! No I am not joking! She is obsessed with all of these subjects. She is such a curious girl and wants to understand the ins and outs of everything. Especially with me being pregnant she has been talking about how she wants to have a ton of babies when she grows up. Everyday the number of babies she is going to have changes. Someday it is only 12 or 13 but sometimes she wants to compete with the Duggers and have in the 20's. It cracks me up. Luckily she finally understands that I am not going to have that many because at first that is how many she wanted me to have. So with her talking about this desire to have babies I told her that she had to get married before she could have any babies and the very next day she started asking this little boy who is in her church and preschool class to marry her. For the first couple of weeks he kept saying no and she was really upset and she would come home everyday and tell me that she asked Carson to marry her and that he said no. However, after a little discussion with his mom who is a really good friend of mine, Carson finally agreed to marry her and let me tell you how excited she is. She talks about how they are going to get married in the temple and that she wants to marry him so that they can play together all the time. It is pretty precious.
The other topic she wants to discuss all the time is death. It sort of makes me sad how worried she is about it. We have these multi volume Book of Mormon scripture books we read together every night before bed. We are on the sixth book and pretty much someone has died in every book so far. The other thing about these books are that they have pretty graphic pictures on every page. So when we read about Jesus being Crucified there is a picture of him on the cross. Or we are about to read about Abinadi and there is a picture of him being burned at the stake. So I think Maddie now has a very violent idea of what death is like. She is always asking me when I am going to die and who is going to take care of her when I die. I keep trying to tell her that I am not going to die for a really long time and that when I do she will be old and married but because she doesnt fully understand time yet, I dont think my reassurance is helping. Tonight we talked about it again. Here was our converstaion.
Maddie: Mom, once we die we cant come back to earth huh?
Me: No not until the Savior comes back to earth
Maddie: If I die and I go to heaven will you still be my mother?
Me: Yes I will still be your mother but I am your earth mother and when you go to heaven you will get to see you Heavenly Mother and Father.
Maddie: Momma, if we both die and I am in heaven sitting in a chair will you come sit next to me?
Me: Of coarse Maddie, I will always sit next to you!

The last thing I wanted to share tonight is how excited I am for our little guy to get here. I am so ready for him to be born and start being apart of our family. It is such a interesting feeling to realize that I don't ever have to share this child with anyone, beside Nolan of coarse. I never have to be away from him unless I chose too. It is a wonderful and somehow a weird feeling because it has not been the norm in my life up to this point. Anyway, we are so excited!!!! Here is a short video of my stomach. As you can see Spencer is very active and it is sort of hard to see but he has the hiccups which he has had 3 times today alone. Good Times!!!!