Confession!

So all day today I have again been thinking about my parenting. I know what your thinking, your thinking...think about something else already. I guess that is just what comes with the territory of being a parent. Well I guess what I have been wondering is if it is a bad thing that I enjoy Maddie's nap and bed time almost as much as I enjoy her awake time. She is so high energy and we have so much fun when she is awake, that by the time she is ready for some rest, I feel so ready for some R&R as well. I honestly feel like I am able to enjoy her so much more if I am able to get some me time when she is asleep. Is this a bad thing? For example today we woke up and got cleaned up for the day. Then every thursday we attend Toddler Time at the Library which Maddie just absolutely love. She just love books, music, and seeing all the other kids. After that I asked her what she wanted to do for fun and she told me she wanted to go play at the mall, and to the mall we went. We had a blast, eating in the food court and then playing at their indoor play land. By 2 I was beat and she was starting to get a little whiny so we headed home. Within ten minutes of being home she was sound asleep and I was able to watch some TV and was able to crochet a blanket Maddie asked me to make. It was so nice and I felt so grateful that she was taking a nap and that I could just have a few hours to myself. Even if it was only to crochet. It feels like such a weird combination of emotions to love your child so deeply that you wouldn't know how to live in a world where they didn't exist now that they do but at the same time be grateful when you get break from them. However, I do know this, that no matter how ready for a break I am from parenting or frustrated I get when Maddie is whiny, I know that I never want her to see it because in this life there are no do overs or take backs when it comes to our kids. Once something has been done or said it can never be undone or said. We only get one chance to be great parent, ONLY ONE!!! So lets not settle for doing a half beat down job. Let strive to make it the best thing about us. When I die I dont want to be remembered for being a great artist, singer, friend, church member, athlete, ext. I want to be remember for how much I loved my children and my husband, not because I say I do all the time but because they see it in my everyday life.

I don't know if I am making sense or not but I hope you know what I mean. I truly feel like children are the greatest gifts that Heavenly Father can give us. No matter how a child comes into your life they are a gift, so if you haven't given your child a hug today, DO IT, and tell them how much you love them. And after you are done telling them how much you love them, spend the rest of your life showing them.