So this last week I have been having to communicate with my husband only via email and i realized my short emails to him are sort of like what I wanted my blog to be. My emails usually consist of funny things that happened to me throughout the day or funny thing that Maddie said. A lot of the time they also consist of whatever I am thinking about and occasionally things I need to vent about. I feel like I never have the time to blog but the truth is that I absolutely do. So I am going to try and start blogging every night. We will see how it goes.
This week I have been thinking alot about what makes a good mom. I guess the truth is I constantly wonder whether I am one. Do I play with, show love, teach her enough everyday? Am I being to firm or maybe I am being to soft? Do I do enough stuff with her? Am I inadvertently traumatizing her in some unknown way? This idea of being a perfect parent keeps me awake at night frequently. Some times I just wish there was a guidebook for the basic rules on how to be the best parent and produce an amazing, self reliant, self confident, honest, loyal, hardworking, trustworthy, respectful, kind, caring, and loving offspring.
The truth is, that there is NO guidebook or standard for what makes a good parent. We are each different and have different needs and I guess being a good mom mean doing the best I can everyday to play and show love to my children in the ways they need and to learn from my mistakes and try to correct them for tomorrow.
Thank you to all the woman out there who are doing there best to be great moms and who have taught me the skills to improve my parenting!
Dangit, I was kind of hoping that this introspect with end with some tangible advice to me about how to be a good Mom...I just need to be told sometimes. If it's any consolation, I think you are an amazing Mom and your daughter is all those things you said you want her to be AND adorable to boot. So I'd say that even worrying about being a good Mom means something, because you care.
ReplyDeleteAnd I hear you on the communication with the husband. I really do.